Friday, December 02, 2005

wednesday:
had business statistics test today. didn't really study but i think i did okay. only did the calculation questions and totally left all the interpretation questions blank. was too lazy to do them. anyway i was rushing for time also cos i'm very slow with numbers. anyway, after that i met corsai and we went for lunch at j8. bought alot of things from action city. and bought a mega jumbo word search book also. so that i can kill time during boring lectures. i told corde all about HIM. and she totally went into confucious mode. except that this confucious major in matters of the heart, not stuff like filial piety. i don't know but i kept thinking that she wanted to say "i told you so" but refrained herself from saying it. it was my fault in the first place so it was ok if she said that to me. and now 3 people know about him. corde, yong jie and gigi...

thursday:
regular boring lecture in the morning. i haven't been to statistics lecture for two weeks in a row so when i reached school in the morning, i couldn't remember where was the lecture theatre that i was supposed to go into. ended up following a bunch of fellow htm people and finally found the LT. skipped microecons lecture today again cos gigi wasn't going and yanwan offered to teach me that chapter. but we ended up playing pool at tampines central. was so fun. super shiok. it pumped up my andrenaline and i was totally awake. but after we ended the game, i totally went back to gimme-a-cupa-coffee mode. while on the bus with corde, she told me this. the longer he takes to call me, the less important i am to him. for example, if he calls me immediately after td, it means that i actually have a place in his heart, so much so that i'm the first one he calls. if he waits for a few days before actually contacting me to talk, then it means that i'm not as important as some other people that he will call right upon td. now i'm really afraid. only a few more days. i'm very sure that there's only a few more days before the td. i'm not sure of the exact date cos i was too obsessed with something else and i totally forgot about the td. after the td, the whole truth will be revealed. and i think i won't stand a chance at all. not a tiny bit. and this will be my retribution. i deserve it.

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